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Been long hasn’t it? Hehe. So well yeah, this is a pre-typed post as I know I might not be able to finish up the post within a day due to the many many many many things I would like to update on. Nyeheh.

Lack of time to do almost everything has been a major problem to me for the past 6 weeks. Due to CPTC that is :’( Gotta be honest, at times, on my way home from CPTC I would just sit and think how awesome it’d be if I live in the west area during times like those. But then, I kept on reminding myself.. ‘6 weeks and its over’ & yaaaaaa, 4 weeks through the CPTC, I got to know I was signed in Jurong Island (still) for my attachment. The ‘6 weeks je’ motivation no longer works. Hahaha! Reaching home at almost 10pm everyday is no joke. Seriously draining..

I remembered there’s once I came back home, from CPTC, crying. To think back, I was really reaaaaally tired that day that as I alighted from the bus I could only cry and cry and cry. I was trying not to make it too obvious I was crying but well, Ibu saw me through (Who are you kidding righhht) when I reached home. I normally would cry (a lot) if I am sad or happy, but never when I’m tired. That was the first..and hopefully the last. J

Another highlight from CPTC was the Mid Term Test. Out of the 50+ students that took the test, I was one of the 13 students that failed. How does that make me feel? Disappointed with no one else but myself. I know I could have tried harder.. Anyway, like what Ibu said, ‘Just try again, whatever the outcome is..’ So, let’s try again! InsyaAllah all is going to be well~ J Shall not rant more on this. Afterall, what’s passed has passed. ;D

Now, there’s only few more days left before the end of CPTC (and Final Term test that is). I am going to –without a doubt- miss that place. So many new friends made. Good times it has been despite all the ups and downs. Alhamdulillah for everything. ♥

Gotta work harder than usual to make it through, hopefully.

Moving on, the family has been so busy packing up the house stuffs in preparation for us to move out on the 8^th of June. I feel so bad not being able to help around that much due to time constraint and CPTC. I kept on telling Ibu not to pack my stuffs first as I will do it once I’m done with Final Term. But just few days back, I came home to see my wardrobe was half cleared. ‘If I am to wait for you, it’ll take too long. Dah balik attachment mesti penat, macamana nak pack?’ That’s what she said. Honestly, I am truly truly blessed to have her as a mother. May Allah bless you <3

So yeah, the house is pretty much filled with boxes now. I am too busy nowadays that I can barely be emotional about this whole ‘moving out’ thing like how I used to be when I first get to know it. Like what my dad said, ‘It is for the best’. InsyaAllah, it is! (:

Attachment will commence on the 27^th of May and honestly speaking, I do not know what to expect. I am excited but at the same time not looking forward. Mainly not looking forward to it because of the location. It’s be nice if that company is in Ubi or something. Nyeheh. I told myself, already, just get it over and done with. It’s His plans for me anyway~:’D

Lastly, I miss my girls, I miss my bestfriend, I miss my closemates, I miss my juniors, I miss almost everyone. I’m not saying this just for the sake of saying it, it really came from the bottomestestest of my heart. ): Allah yubaarik feekunna!

& Of course, after all this rant, life still goes on.

‘Whatever that is good for you, is there right in front of you. Look for it! You never know what you’ll find..’

I'll end it with this. Hehe. Ilalliqa'! ;D